Sunday, September 28, 2008

翻旧账(1):蝶

前言:最近忙得屙屎都没空,更甭说写部落格。还好发现之前写过的一些文章或拍过的照片,就陆陆续续放上来献世,让大家口诛笔伐一番,也好省我工夫。

1.化蝶

“如果我是半张废纸,让我化蝶”——《垃圾》卢巧音。


我常想,所谓的意义就是一种标签,当你决心赋予一件平庸之物无上的意义,心中的标签一落下,犹如印章重重盖落合约上的声音,世界也仿佛为了适应你的喜好稍微地调整秩序。你已完成一项交易,从此,抽水马桶在你眼里也可变成天下最宽容的玉碗,包容世人的忧郁鼓噪。


我也想,“意义”的意义是相对的。我是什么不重要,在你眼里我是像什么才是问题的核心。如果生活是架机器,面包仅仅是燃料;如果书写是为了发泄,手中的笔就是武器。如果……


如果,你是一只蝴蝶,我又会是什么?


至少,在我眼中,你是一只爱飞舞的蝴蝶。没有绚丽迷人的翅膀,你用独有的步伐,或起舞或跳跃或穿梭红尘。华丽斑斓的外表只带来短暂的惊喜,你的一颦一笑带来的是永恒的难忘。人们无不拜倒你的风姿之下,我都看在眼里。


蝴蝶有没有归宿?若有,也是那张开双臂拥你入怀的鲜花。而我,只是一张废纸,一张对你而言不具有任何用途的废纸。我是那么地平凡,平凡地躺在一旁也不会让人觉得占地方。于是,我将身躯深深埋入土里,化成花儿的养料。形式变化,心意依旧。你可以漠视我的存在,我的存在是为了成全你。


废纸的心愿,是化蝶。留着它诉诸来生吧。


2.悼蝶

“不知周之梦为蝴蝶与,蝴蝶之梦为周与?”《庄周梦蝶》庄周。


最近家里飞来了一只白蝴蝶。


它什么也不做,只是静静地站在天花板一个角落,一窥屋内众生容颜。妈说,外公逝世后,家里也飞来了一只差不多一样的蝴蝶。也许是老人家对子孙仍有牵挂,化身蝴蝶来看看他们过得还好么。这种昆虫类也变成了运送回忆牵挂的信使。


之后,我也没特意留意它。


那是一个闷热的晚上,热得躺坐在椅子追看港剧的我也没力去思考剧情,任戏中的嘻笑怒骂牵引自己的意识。


蓦然,女主角闪过一种表情,只有两秒的表情,被紧盯荧幕的目光捕捉了。


那是女主角低眉沉吟,歪着脖子思量的写照,通过视觉神经传入大脑,化成另一个女子的表情。她曾经走入我的生活,却告诉我并不是她唯一归宿,如今也已失去联络。我只记得,她是个像蝴蝶的女子,脆弱,却不愿作任何停留。


我想起家中的白蝴蝶。没在天花板的角落发现,而是在屋外花盆旁,被蚁群耀武扬威地抬回巢穴。我伫立良久,竟然为它感到伤感。也许它完成了递送回忆的使命,或者成功唤醒某段被遗忘的时光,功成身退,留下我们陷在思念里。


上网遇到友人J,问她:“能不能用诗人的笔触悼念我死去的蝴蝶?”


等了一会儿,看到她的回复:


“纤细的足肢,点在记忆上,无痕,却痛。”


仿佛看到某个角落,白蝴蝶在栖息,含笑凝视。


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Room For Thought

It was quite a nice morning. I sat in front of the laptop and started to read online newspaper. I've found this article, it has given me room for thought to make me think, "am i correct for what i've been pursuing?" Obviously, even the intention is not wrong, but the method must be somehow out of control. I copied this article as a reference to myself. Must always be alert and controlled, WWK.

Love Must Be Tough 

  1. Don’t let a relationship move too fast in its infancy. The phrase “too hot not to cool down” has validity. Romantic affairs that begin in a frenzy frequently burn themselves out. Take it one step at a time.
  2. Don’t discuss your personal inadequacies and flaws in great detail when the relationship is new. No matter how warm and accepting your friend may be, any great revelation of low self-esteem or embarrassing weaknesses can be fatal when interpersonal “valleys” occur. And they will occur.
  3. Remember that respect precedes love. Build it stone upon stone.
  4. Don’t call too often on the phone or give the other person an opportunity to get tired of you.
  5. Don’t be too quick to reveal your desire to get married – or that you think you’ve just found Mr. Wonderful or Miss Marvelous. If your partner has not arrived at the same conclusion, you’ll throw him or her into panic.
  6. Most important: Relationships are constantly being “tested” by cautious lovers who like to nibble at the bait before swallowing the hook. This testing procedure takes many forms, but it usually involves pulling back from the other person to see what will happen. Perhaps a foolish fight is initiated. Maybe two weeks will pass without a phone call. Or sometimes flirtation occurs with a rival.
    In each instance, the question being asked is, “How important am I to you, and what would you do if you lost me?” An even more basic issue lies below that one. It is: “How free am I to leave if I want to?” It is incredibly important in these instances to appear poised, secure and equally independent. Do not grasp the other person and beg for mercy. Some people remain single throughout life because they cannot resist the temptation to grovel when the test occurs.
  7. Extending the same concept, keep in mind that virtually every dating relationship that continues for a year or more and seems to be moving toward marriage will be given the ultimate test. A breakup will occur, motivated by only one of the lovers. The rejected individual should know that their future together depends on the skill with which he or she handles that crisis. If the hurting individual can remain calm, the next two steps may be reconciliation and marriage. It often happens that way. If not, then no amount of pleading will change anything.
  8. Do not depend entirely upon each other for the satisfaction of every emotional need. Maintain interests and activities outside that romantic relationship, even after marriage.
  9. Guard against selfishness in your love affair. Neither the man nor the woman should do all the giving. I once broke up with a girl because she let me take her to nice places, bring her flowers, buy her lunch, etc. I wanted to do these things but expected her to reciprocate in some way. She didn’t.
  10. Beware of blindness to obvious warning signs that your potential husband and wife is basically disloyal, hateful, uncommitted, hooked on drugs or alcohol, given to selfishness, etc. Believe me, a bad marriage is far worse than the most lonely instance of singleness.
  11. Beginning early in the dating relationship, treat the other person with respect and expect the same in return. If you don’t preserve this respectful attitude when the foundations of marriage are being laid, it will be virtually impossible to construct them later.
  12. Do not equate human worth with flawless beauty or handsomeness! If you require physical perfection in your mate, he or she may make the same demands of you. Neither of you will keep it for long. Don’t let love escape you because of the false values of your culture.
  13. If genuine love has escaped you thus far, don’t begin believing “No one will ever want me.” That is a deadly trap that can destroy you emotionally. Millions of people are looking for someone to love. The problem is finding one another!
  14. Regardless of how brilliant the courtship has been, take time to “check your assumptions” with your partner before committing yourself to marriage. It is surprising how often men and women plunge toward matrimony without ever becoming aware of major differences in expectation between them.
  15. Sexual familiarity can be deadly to a relationship. In addition to the many moral, spiritual and physical reasons for abstinence before marriage, there are numerous psychological and interpersonal advantages as well. It may sound like an old-fashioned notion but both sexes need to remember how to use a very ancient word. It’s pronounced “NO!”
  16. Country singer Tom T. Hall wrote a song in which he revealed an understanding of the concept we have been describing. His lyric read, “If you hold love too closely then it flies away; if you hold love too tightly, it’ll die. It’s one of the mysteries of life.” Hall’s observation is accurate. If the commitment between a man and a woman is given insufficient importance in their lives, it will wither like a plant without water. The whole world knows that much. But fewer lovers seem to realize that extreme dependency can be just as deadly to a love affair. It has been said that the person who needs the other least will normally be in control of the relationship. I believe that to be true.
  17. There is nothing about marriage that eliminates the basic need for freedom and respect in romantic interactions. Keep the mystery and the dignity in your relationship. If the other partner begins to feel trapped and withdraws for a time, grant him or her some space and pull back yourself. Do not build a cage around that person. Instead, release your grip with confidence while never appeasing immorality or destructive behavior.
Written by Dr James Dobson

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Friday, September 26, 2008

我的第一副对联


自己的创作,下联和横批由电脑帮我搞定,哈哈!

有兴趣的朋友可以自己尝试创作对联:点击这里

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Wednesday, September 24, 2008

孤狗粉丝

放心,“孤狗粉丝”绝对不是中国八大名菜之一,“孤狗粉丝”说的是在下。

话说某天当我安装了google最新的浏览器chrome之后才赫然发现,原来我这个二十一世纪科技下的产物,每天的生活都已经与“孤狗”有关了。此话何解?我来向大家剖析:

1. 首先,找资料找图片找什么什么的,当然是“孤狗搜索引擎”


2. 检查电邮,或传播八卦消息,就用到“巨媚儿”了:

3. 除了MSN,即时通也用上“巨脱客”


4. 看短片看MV,就去“你管”

你不懂“你管”被孤狗收购了吗?

5. 获知朋友最新消息或看最新照片,就用“废烂死得”(也是被孤狗收购了):

6. 要发泄说废话风花雪月的,就用“菠萝格”

7. 当当当~~~最新出炉的孤狗“克罗母”浏览器!爱死它简洁的风格,虽然现在还只是beta版,相信它会越变越好:


总结是:我爱孤狗!

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Tuesday, September 16, 2008

致谢

话说某年某日,火星人降陆,在我这片野火燎原的荒野留下了痕迹。从此以后,我相信火星人的存在:
后来我去了火星人的窝一趟,才知道原来上面不只住了火星人,还住了个金星人。那次之后,我就很频密的造访他们的家。后来火星人忙于工作,反而我跟金星人熟络了起来。(上图:看到没有,火星人的武器:雷射激光枪。)

虽然我与金星人素未谋面,而且大家相隔两个星球谈起天来总是有点代沟,根据地球与其他星球的距离,再粗略算过星球诞生的时间,发现原来他俩都是我的前辈,N年前已经装扮成人类的样子在岛国观察地球人的生活习惯。不过这都影响不了我们跨星球和时代的友谊。

中间就是金星人的人类样貌。
听说遥远的外太空传送了最新指示给他们,要求金星人前去西方最大的国家——美国观察美国人种的点点滴滴,然后汇报总部。可怜的火星人只好继续留在岛国,与金星人遥遥对望,简直就是牛郎织女21世纪超现实太空版本。

但是不用怕,由于外太空的科技比地球的高出千万倍,火星人金星人当然有自己一套沟通和感情保温的方式。这种方式的原理有点像电视转播,就叫做“心电感应”!

他们比ET更厉害,不用手指接触就能知道对方心意。
最后,祝金星人一路顺风,赶快适应没有火星人在身边的日子和在美国的生活。也感谢她一直以来对我的谆谆善诱,让我知道地球很危险的。
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Wednesday, September 10, 2008

仪式

清晨七点半,车站。

你奋力地睁开惺忪的双眼,看到一尾一尾的鱼儿在你眼前,它们也是要在八点钟,或更早,游向各属的目的地。

顷刻,橙色的铁箱驶进来,打开一个缺口。小鱼们有秩序地列队,一尾接一尾地游进去,选择位置,站好(也只有站的姿势才能容纳更多鱼儿)。等到铁箱剩下最后一道缝隙,你也摆一摆尾巴,游了进去。

铁箱出发,外层印着:“国大沙丁鱼罐头”,下方另加小标语:“天天新鲜”。

每天至少四五次不断游进游出铁箱,是膜拜学校必须进行的仪式。将一切归纳,仿佛每天早上七点历经九九八十一难才成功起床,也是作为学生必须奉行的仪式。

而生活,原本就是一场由无数小仪式组成的大仪式,你如是说。

(ps:写于一个失眠但疲惫的夜晚。)

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Tuesday, September 9, 2008

失眠夜

所谓的压力总是在毫无预警时来袭。

又是一个睡不着的的晚上。

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Saturday, September 6, 2008

再来-日本無名团·U-min



再放一个最喜欢的舞团-無名的短片。各位不要被吓到噢。

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Monday, September 1, 2008

三个问题

我承认自己是个自恋的人。广泛地说,每个人都会自恋,或多或少以自己为中心。我自恋的程度到哪里?我常想自己是独一无二的,这世界有很多“歪”的人,也有很多“王伟杰、王玮杰、X伟杰”或“XX杰”等,可是我自己才是拥有独一无二我的生活的王玮杰。我的喜好、外貌、态度和行为,你可以不认同,但这就是造成独特的我的因素。

我也想,身为一个那么独特的我,究竟能够做些什么事,去改变身边的环境或是人。也正因为我意识到每一个人都是独特的,就算是同一个人的不同身份也对周遭有着深浅的影响力,于是一年前我以大学生身份写了这样的一篇文章

一年后的某一晚,我因特殊机缘下对一年级的新生发表演说。我在演讲中发出了三个问题,这是一直以来问自己的三个问题:

1. 你想当个怎样的人?
2. 你现在做什么?
3. 你想要有什么成就?


今天我就要用“青年”的身份,回答这些问题。

我是青年,并不是说我“一定要”朝气蓬勃充满活力的。所谓的“一定”只是社会赋予的标签,身为青年还有其他构成的因素。我是青年,不只是我保持一定的动力,我关心朋友、关心社会、关心学业或工作,更重要的是,我也关心国家。我不是只会吃喝玩乐,在大笔大笔花父母的血汗钱的同时,我也关注国家的局势和安全,那个生我育我的地方。政治关青年的事吗?绝对有关,我们对国家的效忠和信任,大部分就是从对政治人物的印象解读出来。我不想成被别人问起:“你的国家怎么那么多事?”的时候,只是耸一耸肩,说:“我也不懂,很久没看新闻了。”所以,大选期间,我回家乡投票了。

一年前的想法到现在还是没改变,我仍然相信,青年的力量足以动摇整个地球。因此不要小看自己的能力。我现在在做什么?我在为自己的目标努力奋斗,为了达致目标我不惜放弃生活某些事物,因为我知道选择的另一面也等于放弃。在国家层面,我选择相信在野党,并不是它“很好”,而是目前的执政党“太差”了。所以,我不会陷入政治狂热的状况,拿着在野党旗在大马路飚车;也不会觉得支持在野党就是一种风潮,谁不支持的就是"out-dated"的人。他们不是我的政治偶像,没有必要盲目崇拜。我做的,是对政党的评估,用批判而不是仰望的眼光去支持。既然现存的已经腐烂到这种程度,我就姑且“换一换人”做做看。如果也是个不及格的烂苹果,抱歉,请你下台。

青年要有青年的展望,我的展望也一样,祈望我喜爱的国家会出现这样的一天:

  • 去族群化的统治,用“有能者居之”的精神制定公平的政策,而不是看肤色。
  • 照顾每个“马来西亚人”,而不是“马来西亚马来人”或“马来西亚华人”或“马来西亚印度人”,别忘了肤色比我们更黝黑的原住民同胞,他们也是马来西亚的一分子。
  • 杜绝贪污滥权,绝对权力造成绝对腐败,绝对不可以放过浪费人民资源和白拿薪水不做事的政棍。
  • 杜绝司法干预,让三权真正分立,法律面前人人平等。
  • 开明和平的社会,不要遇到什么课题都用“敏感”来盖过。吃了五十多年独立的米,还要你来教我们什么是“敏感话题”吗?在21世纪,任何方面都有可能互相影响和干预,不能说讨论改教导致法律问题的论坛就是“敏感”。若是这样,请问那一群硬闯的鸟人又是不是“敏感”而不用理会了呢?

是不是很难达成?是的,是非常困难,但不代表我们就要失去希望而放弃。困难不代表不需要理会、尝试,因为我们不是傻瓜,也不是每天睡醒就等着被填饱的鸭子,我们是有志青年。



这就是我对国家心中燃烧的那把火。
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HUA HEE TIO HO

这几天都有一种奇怪的感觉,很想找一首歌来听,偏偏受到各方干扰后,打开youtube又忘了是要听什么歌。虽然不是什么重要的事,总觉得心里好不踏实。

终于终于终于,这个念头又再一次像闪电一样劈在脑袋上。我赶紧抓住闪电,回房间找了这首歌:



我父母都不是福建人,但是小时候妈妈爱听福建歌,这首就是我印象就深刻和最喜欢的经典冠军歌曲。

虽然在生活中很难办到,但也希望大家能像这首歌一样,生活欢喜就好,take it easy^^
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